Finally sorted

I came here with a woman. We told everyone it was a girls trip. It was the only real relationship I've ever been in. We held hands on the boat when no one was looking and let go every time someone walked past. I've been back twice since. Alone. I stand at the same spot on the water and try to remember exactly what her hand felt like. I'm engaged to a man now. My parents think I'm finally sorted. — 33, Kochi